la la la la la Tonight...and tomorrow, and the next...

I've decided I'm not going to be sad tonight.

The reality is that we've learned along this journey from Michael Jackson, Corey Haim, and others that this journey could end at any moment whether or not it's by choice. If tomorrow their Twitter Accounts get deleted and the website disappears there is absolutely nothing for me to do but be grateful.

Here's the thing-they didn't have to come back. They had enough money, they had projects and plans and didn't need us anymore. They came back anyway. And they've given me the 2 best years of my life. If that ends tonight after Hangin' Tough,then there's nothing I can do but say thank you. Thank you Joe for making me feel 15. Thanks you Jonathan for teaching me about courage in the face of adversity. Thank you Danny for being the voice of reason and balance and above that for always showing your love. We will find a cure. Thank you Donnie for the endless love, patience, BESOS, and enthusiasm and for always "getting it." You're golden, baby. J-I don't have words. Nashville was the ultimate perfect day for any fan and I will NEVER ever forget that. It takes a lot to surprise me but you did. To the others on this journey who never seem to get enough thanks for what they do-Rob, Ethan, Fish, Chris, and especiallu Jason and Johnny and hell even Robo and Earl, thank you for taking care of our boys and for all you have done to make us feel special and to make this journey as incredible as it has been.

So tonight during Hangin' Tough, I'm not going to cry. I'll cry during Close to You but I always cry during Close to You. LOL. I'm just going to say thank you for this journey, and I can't wait to hear what's next-whatever that is.